- להאזנה שיחת השבוע 023 ויקהל-פקודי מעשה לב תשעז
023 Vaykhel Pekudei | Will and Action
- להאזנה שיחת השבוע 023 ויקהל-פקודי מעשה לב תשעז
Weekly Shmuess - 023 Vaykhel Pekudei | Will and Action
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The Abundance of Donations For The Mishkan: The Power of the Will
In Parashas Vayakhel-Pekudei, the Torah says that the nation brought an abundance of donations to the Mishkan, and that anyone who was a “nediv lev” (generous of heart) could give a gift for the Mishkan. The nation came forward with an abundance of donations to help build the Mishkan.
There were so many gifts and donations pouring in that Moshe had to command them to stop donating. The simple understanding of this matter is that not only did the nation have a ratzon (will) to donate, but they wanted to donate even after there was more than enough.
We know that everything in Creation is run with Divine Providence, and that there is a purpose and planning for everything that happens, down to the last detail. The extra abundance of donations to the Mishkan was certainly included in Divine Providence as well. The Mishkan, which was the place on the world where the Shechinah dwelled, was surely being run with Divine Providence, in all its details. Therefore, the will of the nation to donate to the Mishkan, and to increase upon the donations, was therefore also a necessary part of the plan, even though it seems at first glance as superfluous and unnecessary.
Ratzon\Will and Maaseh\Action
To explain the root of this matter, there is a power of maaseh (action) and a power of ratzon (will) in our soul. Ratzon (will) is present specifically in the heart, whenever a person wants to do something, and it is the initiating force of man’s actions. The end result is the maaseh (action), which actualizes the potential of the ratzon and brings it to fruition. Ratzon is a higher force in the soul than maaseh, therefore, it “takes up more space” - there is more percentage of ratzon in a person’s life than actual maaseh. In the way that Hashem has designed the world, it is normal for people to want more than what they actually do, whereas it is not normal for people to do more than they want.
The will of a person is a more powerful force than his power of action, both in quantity and in depth. It is necessary for the will of a person to be bigger in percentage than the action; that is the way things are supposed to be. For example, Chazal say that “More than the calf wants to nurse [from its mother], the [mother] cow wants to nurse [its young]”. The “action” here is the act of the calf nursing from its mother, but the desire of the mother to nurse its young calf is greater than the calf’s desire to actually nurse from its mother. This is true as well with all of Creation: the power of ratzon (will) must be greater than the amount of maaseh (action) there is.
When Willpower Doesn’t Lead To Action
There is more subtlety to this matter. Sometimes one’s ratzon is greater than one’s maaseh because a person wishes very much to actualize the potential of something and bring it to fruition. However, in such a case, the ratzon can be delusional, and it will never amount to anything.
For example, there are people who have great aspirations for holiness, and they will speak of a great love for Torah, and their words can be very moving to you when you hear them. If you ask them, “Nu, so how much do you learn Torah during the day?” they cannot give you a straight answer. Their actions greatly contradict their yearning to learn Torah. There is a gaping contradiction that exists between their power of ratzon (will) and maaseh (action). There is something deficient in their ratzon, because their ratzon is not leading them to act upon it.
However, we are not dealing with this problem here. Here we are explaining that there is a general rule that a person’s ratzon is always going to take up more space, than the possibility to actualize it into maaseh. Since ratzon takes up more space than maaseh, the full ratzon of a person will not entirely come to fruition.
Actualized Will Leads To Serenity
Whenever a person wanted to do something and then he achieved it, he feels serene as soon as he does whatever he wanted to do. He wanted something badly, and he got it, so he will feel some serenity with this. It is actualizing the potential of the will, which feels enlightening to the soul – a degree of the serenity when Hashem rested after finishing creating the six days of the week, where everything had been actualized from potential state to its completed state, and that was the menuchah (serenity) of Shabbos.
A person also experiences this on some small level whenever he brings anything to fruition, which brings something from its potential state to an active, finished state.
But as mentioned above, it is not possible for a person to fully actualize his wishes. The ratzon is always greater in percentage than the amount it can be actualized. That being the case, a person can never have total serenity even after actualizing what he wanted to do. It is like the statement, “Torah scholars have no serenity, not in this world and not in the next world.”[1]
The Gemara says, “Great is Torah study, for it brings one to action.”[2] Acting upon the Torah, the revelation of Hashem’s will, causes the potential of the Torah to be activated, and this is why “Great is Torah study, for it brings one to action.” It is not simply because learning Torah enables one to know how to act properly. It is because “Hashem looked into the Torah and created the word”, learning into the Torah means that one is looking into the source of Creation, thus Torah learning is great because it allows one to actualize his potential forces, bringing them from their potential state into their active state.
The meaning of a true Torah scholar is one whose Torah learning builds his inner self. The Torah is the revelation of Hashem’s will, and when Torah builds the self of man, it builds all of the potential forces of the soul and allows for complete self-actualization. Thus, “Torah learning is great, for it brings one to action.”
However, the “action” aspect which Torah study leads to is but one part of learning Torah. It is the first and essential part of Torah study, of course, and one must learn Torah in order to act upon it. But even though this is true, not all Torah learning can lead a person to acting upon it. Part of one’s Torah learning will remain purely as Torah learning, and it will not lead to any action.
For example, the Sages state that a ben sorer u’morer (wayward child) will never happen, and the only reason why this part of Torah exists is so that we can study its laws and receive reward for it. This part of Torah will never lead one to action, because it is of no relevance. It is purely for the sake of Torah learning.
In addition, throughout all of the Talmud, we come across the “initial opinion” (hava amina) of the Gemara, and the conclusive opinion (maskana) in the Gemara. The conclusion of the Gemara forms the actual halachah that we act upon, but we do not act upon the “initial opinion” of the Gemara. It is there purely for the sake of Torah learning. (Of course, we cannot understand the maskana unless we first learn the hava amina.) On a deeper level, the hava amina of the Gemara builds the entire person’s inner structure, beginning with the root faculties of the mind and ending with the actions. But whenever we learn a hava amina, it is not about acting upon it, but about receiving reward for it.
This is also true of the many beraisos brought in the Gemara which the Gemara does not conclude with. Learning these parts of the Gemara are not about action; they are purely meant for learning. Thus, learning Torah consists of parts of Torah which lead to action, and another part of learning Torah includes parts which do not lead to action, which are purely about learning Hashem’s will. This shows us that there are parts of Torah which is more about “ratzon” than “maaseh”.
(There is also a level of Torah learning in between these two areas: the parts of Torah which lead to action, but which cannot be acted upon right now. For example, learning the halachos of Pesach will eventually be relevant, when Pesach comes, but not right now, when it is not yet Pesach.)
In either case, we see that learning Torah can have more to do with ratzon\will, than maaseh\action. Often when learning Torah, we are studying the will of Hashem which we cannot act upon right now. Although you will find in the words of Chazal that the “main thing is action”, this is only true in certain situations. It is not the complete truth. “Torah study is great, for it leads one to action” when we are learning parts of Torah that lead to action, but when learning parts of Torah that do not lead to action, in those areas, the emphasis on learning about the will of Hashem, and not on action.
What Is The Most Important Part of Life – Action, or the Heart?
When it comes to a person’s avodah, the rule is, as the Sages say, “Hashem wants the heart”. Whenever a person learns the words of Chazal, he may struggle with the following fundamental issue: What is the main thing in life? Is the main thing in life the “world of action” which we live on (“Great is Torah study, for it leads one to action”)? Or is the main thing in life the fact that “Hashem wants the heart”, as it is written, “For all the hearts seek Hashem”? What is the most important part of life – the actions, or the heart?
If a person is drawn towards learning halachah, he will probably answer that the main part of life is knowing how to act, and he may cite sources for this. If a person is drawn towards the study of mussar, he will say that although a person is obligated to act properly and according to the halachah, the main thing is the heart.
What is the truth of this matter, though?
This World (Action) and The Next World (Heart)
The true answer to this is that it depends if your perspective is from This World, or from the perspective of the Next World.
On This World, the main thing is action. It is called “the world of action”, so the main thing here on This World is how to act properly. But in the Next World, there are no actions. It is written, “For there are no deeds or accounting in the grave, which you are heading towards.” In the Next World, the main thing is not action, but how much heart one had.
(The heart contains three layers. The outermost layer of the heart is the feelings, the more inner layer is the wisdom of the heart, and the innermost layer of the heart is the heart’s recognition of matters. That is a brief description of the three general uses of the heart.)
There is This World, and there is the Next World. A simple way to understand this is that we experience two different times of the week, which reflect these two states. We have the six days of the week, which represent This World of action, and then there was Shabbos, a “resemblance of the World To Come”. The Gemara says that one can be a “ben olam haba”, meaning that he can be connected to the World To Come even as he is on This World.
How can one be a “ben olam haba”? One cannot only connect himself to the Next World, because this is impossible. On the other hand, one who is connected only to This World, with no connection to the Next World, is defeating the purpose of living. Rather, one needs both “This World” and the “Next World” in his soul. One needs action\weekday\This World, and one also needs heart\Shabbos\Next World. The lower parts of our soul are used for This World, and the deeper, higher parts of our soul need to be used [here] for the Next World, and this is how we connect to the Next World even amidst This World.
The complete level of this was reached by Moshe Rabbeinu, whose “lower half was man, and his higher half was angelic.” His “lower half” was human, meaning that part of him was connected to This World, and this was needed so that he could bring the Torah down from Heaven onto This World. This was the “man” part of Moshe, his “lower half”. The “higher half” of Moshe was like an angel, and in this aspect, Moshe was an angelic being; that was how he could ascend to Heaven.
Similarly, every person can have this to some degree. We are far from Moshe’s level, but the Rambam says that every person can resemble Moshe Rabbeinu on his own level, and Rav Elchonon Wasserman in the name of the Chofetz Chaim[3] writes about this extensively.
We are found on This World, and therefore our soul can feel very connected to it. The Vilna Gaon on his deathbed was crying that he was about to leave the world, for only on this world can a person do the deeds of the mitzvos.
But only the lower part of the soul feels connected to this world. The higher part of the soul is like Shabbos. “A Torah scholar is called Shabbos” – one can live an existence of “Shabbos”, of living a resemblance of the Next World, of a ben olam haba, of someone who is designated for the life in the World To Come.
When one lives only for the “world of action” – even the actions of mitzvos, of being careful in the halachah, etc. – when he eventually takes leave of the world, he will certainly get rewarded for keeping the mitzvos, but his perspective is limited to This World alone, and he is missing the perspective of the World To Come, and he won’t be able to ascend to there.
This is an amazing, and very subtle, point. If a person can only relate to actions, he can only remain in the “world of action”. If he kept the Torah’s mitzvos, the light of the Torah will certainly lift him higher, but because he is only connected to the “action” level of the Torah, he will remain connected to This World.
In contrast, the proper way to live life is - in addition to being careful doing all the mitzvos and all holy actions - that there is a higher place in the soul which we also need to connect ourselves to. This is the area of our soul’s deep ratzon, which does not always manifest in action.
The Deep Ratzon (Innermost Will) of the Soul
Our deep ratzon is the place in ourselves which can sing songs and praises to Hashem. On our own level, each of us can reach the level of Dovid HaMelech, who sang from his soul to Hashem.
The Kuzari writes that when the soul becomes overjoyed, it bursts out in song to Hashem, out of gratitude and pining, to Hashem. This deep part of the soul remains as a desire in the soul, and it is not expressed through any action.
There is a lower part of this deep place in the soul which can be expressed in actions, and these are the halachos of Torah which the world stands upon. But the innermost layer of this part of the soul cannot be expressed through any actions. It remains as a deep ratzon of the soul, and it is impossible to actualize.
When a person realizes that he cannot actualize the deep yearnings of his soul, his innermost ratzon, he may be pained and disappointed this, wondering of what use it is. At times a person must simply have emunah that Hashem doesn’t want him to actualize all of his retzonos for holiness, for whatever reasons He has. But when we understand this matter properly, often we cannot actualize our deepest retzonos because it is simply not within our power to do so. We are only able to do that which is in our power, but there is also a space in our soul full of deep yearnings which we are not able to actualize.
On one hand, there is pain that comes with this, when we realize that we cannot act upon these deep desires of the soul. But at the same time, we can view it purely as a ratzon of the soul, and realize that this, too, has its place – and it doesn’t have to be actualized. It can remain as it is – just a deep yearning in the soul.
One needs to let this space in his soul develop and unfold, without trying to act upon its deep desires. A person should try to access it at times, and just let it be, without trying to actualize it or do anything with it. He should simply let the yearning of the soul develop and intensify, watching what happens. Ideally, the best time to do this is on Shabbos, which is the time to access our deep yearnings of the soul.
Feel the yearnings of your soul. Let them express themselves as they wish. Let yourself cry when you feel the yearnings. Desire, want, yearn, hope, cry – until you can eventually do as Rabbi Akiva did, who cried tears of joy.
When you let your deep ratzon become revealed, this is a part of revealing the Shechinah.
The “Extra” Donations To The Mishkan Were Also A Part of Bringing The Shechinah
This is also the secret behind the many extra donations that came pouring in for the Mishkan. Anything donated to the Mishkan was an actualized ratzon, where they saw the results from their acts of giving. But much of their ratzon couldn’t be actualized. The nation kept bringing donations, and they were told to stop, because it wasn’t needed.
Simply speaking, they wanted to donate, but their donations were refused. But the deeper understanding is that this was actually a part of building the Mishkan: the very ratzon they had to donate more, which they couldn’t actually do. This was a part that enabled the revelation of the Shechinah upon the Mishkan.
The Mishkan was therefore comprised of two aspects - the donations that were brought, as well as the desires of all the people to donate. The actual donations for the Mishkan were like “Great is learning Torah, for it leads one to action” – they were needed to build the Mishkan. As for the donations that weren’t needed to build the Mishkan, the extra donations, the Ohr HaChaim says that a miracle happened, and the amount that was originally needed now changed, and now even the extra donations were needed. The depth behind this matter is because the depth of their ratzon to bring more to the Mishkan turned into a necessary part of the Mishkan!
The donations to the Mishkan were from those who were nediv lev, “generous of heart”. One part of their heart was actualized, in the donations that were actually used for the Mishkan. The part in their heart that was not actualized – their mere desire to donate to the Mishkan, even after it was no longer needed – remained as a ratzon that they had, and although these donations did not have a part in the Shechinah that came upon any of the vessels of the Mishkan, it still had its place in the Shechinah itself that came to the Mishkan and Beis HaMikdash.
Even more so, however, there was a higher gain from this, a higher light of the soul that they reached: the deep yearning of the soul, as described in the verse, "נכספה וגם כלתה נפשי בחצרות ה'" – “It yearns, and it also pines, my soul, in the courtyards of Hashem.” There was no greater “courtyard of Hashem” than in the place of the Shechinah, which was the Mishkan.
These are yearnings of the soul which have no end, and of this it is said, חבוקה ודבוקה בך, “Clinging and attached, to You”.[4]Hashem is infinite, and one who is connected to Hashem will thereby have a yearning for Him which is endless.
This is why the nation kept bringing donations to the Mishkan, much more than what was needed, because their ratzon for holiness had no end. This was a part of building the Mishkan, and of this it is really said, "ושכנתי בתוכם", “And I will dwell amongst them” – the Shechinah, the revelation of Hashem Who is infinite, was revealed in the Mishkan, from the deep yearnings of the souls of the Jewish people to give, endlessly, out of their desire for Hashem which has no end to it.
In Conclusion
This concept is true about the Shechinah which settled on the Mishkan, but it also applies to every Jew’s soul, in every generation. Every person needs these two powers, maaseh\action and ratzon\will.
A person mainly needs to do action, “Great is learning Torah, for it brings one to action”, but upon the actions, one also needs deep desires and yearnings of the soul, for Hashem, for His Torah, and for love of His people, Yisrael. At times, we need to make use of the lower part of the soul, which is used to perform actions, and at times we need to make use of the higher and deeper part of the soul – the yearnings and desires of the soul. We need to give space to this deeper place in the soul, and to let it yearn for Hashem.
This was the depth of the exile and redemption from Egypt, which was called “Mitzrayim”, from the word meitzar, “confines.” There are evil confines, and there are holy confines. The evil confines refer to exile. The holy confines refer to the “actions” of the Torah which Torah learning leads to.
And, as we have been explaining here, there is a deeper place in the soul than this, where there are no confines at all, just freedom. Of this it is said “There is no ben chorin (free person) except one who is involved in Torah study.” We need to let this part of the soul free, and to let it yearn as it wishes to, for its deepest wish – to have true d’veykus with Hashem.
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